Oct '07 - "Do as i say, not as i do...?"

do you ever feel like a fraud?

recently, i was working with this kid and, disturbingly...he and i are going through some similar things. the specifics are different, but the gist of the issues are close enough that as i sat there listening to him, i was thinking in my head..."oh my gosh...YES!" but of course...i couldn't say that to him with the whole, he's there for HIS therapy, not mine!! hehe but something else i was thinking, as i listened intently to him, was that all the usual things that i would tell a client in this situation were sounding woefully hollow in my own head. how could i give him all these ideas for how to solve his problem/deal with his issues...if i don't even really believe them or do them myself??

so far i am enjoying the new show "private practice", and i find that sometimes i really identify with the character, violet. she is this really successful psychiatrist in the practice, but her personal life is a disaster!! its the "do as i say, not as i do" principle.

now, i don't really think that my life is a disaster...but recently, i do have a sense sometimes of being on the edge of a mess! and it does strike me as ironic that i am in a profession where i help others find their way through there own "messes" - and yet, i can't (or won't) seem to put my own insights into practice right now!! blahhhh...its completely frustrating...
when we know that doing something (or not doing something...whatever the case may be) would be better for us, what is it that holds us back?

what is it that keeps us from doing as we say?

**UPDATE** while i like the thoughts that i was having in this post, and still think they are relavant.... i just wanted to say that i've moved past this place and figured out what i needed to do! personal crisis is mostly over and i'm in the recovery phase of things now!! woot woot!